Winter Wonderland

Last night is snowed! FINALLY! So on brandon's lunch break we took Cayden over to the park to play in it. I took a million photos but only had time to edit a few. We had so much fun. Cayden loved throwing snowballs at Mommy and Brandon helped him make a snow man. When we left he threw a bit of a fit but once we got home he asked to go to bed. The snow must have worn him out. The sun is now out and Im guessing by 5pm all of the snow will be gone. At least we were able to enjoy it while it was here!

Bellas Photos and Invitation

My best friend Nicki's daughter is turning 3 on the 21st of October and I had the pleasure of making her invitations and taking the photos for it.

My new life

Over the past month or so I have been a bit of a drama queen. I have numerous "break downs" and felt completely and utterly stressed. As I have dugg deeper in to my relationship with Christ I realize that for the past 20 some years I have been in control. I am a multitasking, organization loving, party planning, crafting, clean, perfectionist control freak! Now I dont mean that I wont surrender and be submissive to my husband as God has called me to but I am responsible for everything other than bringing home the bacon and taking out the trash. I put so much pressure on myself that often at the end of the night if I didn't get everything done on my list of "to do's" I go to bed sad and feeling like a failure.

My husband and I just finished a self confrontation bible study with our wonderfully supportive friends and learned so much about what is truly important in God's eyes. It opened my mind to so much. It made me see that I have expectations for others that have lead me to be judgmental, rude and angry at times. What are my expectations you ask? Beyond what anyone can actually achieve. For the longest time I would freak out if someone was mad at me and I still struggle with this. I will go over and over in my head things that I could have said or done that would upset this person all because they didn't answer the phone when I called. I swear Im crazy.

I have learned from the self confrontation study that the reason I do this is because I am always being negative towards others. No, you wouldn't know I am upset or being judgmental but in my head Im thinking these things. I have learned to not allow myself to have these angry evil thoughts towards others and it has changed my life tremendously! When you start this study you are required to come up with a specific area in your life that you feel you need help in. Mine was competition.

When I started I struggled in this so much I compared my life, my marriage, my child, my parenting, my looks, my house, my everything to others. I often struggled with relationships with others because deep down I was so jealous that they had something I didn't.. I would look at other women and be jealous that I didn't have the relationship with my mother that they have with theirs. I struggle with allowing myself to be close to others because of the lack of parents I had as a child. Now dont get me wrong I have an amazing father who has provided me with any and everything I wanted since birth but a young girl needs more than just expensive jeans and a cool cell phone. I needed my mom! I have come to terms with my mothers disfunction and I have nothing but love in my heart for her but i really am finding I had not moved past these things until that study. I built walls up against people in my life that had hurt me at one time because I was unable to trust others.

I dealt with my mom going on and off of drugs and alcohol all of my life; so to believe that something or someone actually cared for me was hard to believe. I was an emotional wreck at all times. I still am emotional but my emotions are a good thing now!I feel like God has changed me so much in the past year. Although I still fall short and struggle, I feel a change. I dont have the thoughts of jealousy and competition any more and whats funny is when I felt that others were competing with me I realize now that it was really me who was being competitive. I no longer struggle with anxiety after every unanswered phone call (unless I know I was a bit of a brat that day). I guess the point of this blog is to reassure myself that MY GOD IS GOOD! He has again changed me when I thought there was no hope of being different. He is MIGHTY and again has proven stronger than my pride! He is ALL POWERFUL and has taken over yet again when I thought I was in control. My heart is new again.

By the way I have started Bloom (A mommy ministry at sagebrush) and it is A-mazing! It is teaching me how to be intentional in my parenting and focuses a lot on leaving a legacy behind. I also am reading Revolutionary Parenting which is a wonderful book so far. The women Jessica Kennedy who teaches the class is wonderful and has been my Mommy hero since I had Cayden. So its super awesome to get to see her and learn more from her. God is doing wonderful things for me and I sure many women in the group and I will be blogging about the class in the near future I am sure. Well this was a nice litte half hour of peace and quiet.

Greyson Overman (my gorgeous nephew)

Last night I took pictures of my beautiful nephew Greyson. He is turning 1 in October and Kristin wanted to get some pictures of him. Im not by any means great at this but I figured I would give it a try and after messing around with light room and getting a 10 minute tutorial from Tamara (thank goodness for screen sharing) I think they turned out well. I took a photoshop class in high school which came in handy for little things but with his good looks Greyson is handsome in every photo! It was super sunny and we could only get him to open his eyes and look at us if Kristin shadowed his face. Which is why some are a little weird. I did my best to edit the shadows and brighten the photos so we could see his gorgeous eyes. Here are a few of my favorite.

I had to include a couple of Jake because he makes me smile!

THANKS TAM FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP. I look forward to you coming home and teaching me all that you know...ha ha! BUT SERIOUSLY! My husband thinks its funny that every Stay at home mom wants to be a professional photographer but I think we all just love taking pictures of beautiful babies! I have no desire to do this for money I just want to have fun and help out my friends a family! I would love feed back so I can learn what looks good and what doesn't!

Thanks!

Wordless Wednesday

Busy

We are settled into our new home. The tenants of our old home have the key and are moving in tomorrow. It has been an insane 2 weeks. As usual I stretch my self to thin. I have so many wonderful things going on that I cant find time to rest!

My Schedule:

• I am taking pictures of my wonderful nephew Greyson tomorrow. I have had the desire to take photos of my family and friends for a while and now Im going to give it a try.

• My BFF is coming home next week. Her wonderful husband is in the Navy and he is out to sea until January so I get to have my Tamara for the next couple months! We love her!

• Next week Brandon's dad and step mom are coming to visit and are staying with us. It will be a fun time!

• Also next week Kristin and I are starting our new play group with a couple other moms who I am excited to get to know better. I know God will bless the group and we will grow as mothers as well as friends! Its such a great group of talented creative moms....I cant wait!

• The 2nd week of September I start Bloom. Which is a 10 week morning course I am taking at Sagebrush church. Its a great class and I cant wait to see what God is going to do through each mother who is attending.

I want to post pictures up of the new house, maybe Ill get that done tomorrow. We'll see....

Good Night

Diaper Cakes

I love making diaper cakes and I was proud of how these came out so I figured I would post them up for all to see.

I made this one for my friend Nicki in December for Jonah's baby shower.

I used the extra diapers and made balloon weights with Jonah's name on them. They turned out super cute!

This diaper cake I made today for Jessica my friend Tamara's sister in-law who is expecting her 1st baby. I love it!

A beautiful blog all moms should see Mila's Daydreams

Being the wife of a geek I laughed pretty hard when I saw this wedding cake!

Happy Father's Day

This blog is dedicated to the amazing Father's in my life.

My Husband and Father to my baby boy:

We started the journey of parenthood together on Monday, November 17th, 2008. We cried our eyes out together at 12:13 pm that day when we heard or little Cayden cry for the first time. It was the single best moment in both of our lives and as Cayden continues to grow we continue to learn new things. Until you have kids you don't know how much your parents love you. He molded our son into a strong, independent, loving, obedient (sometimes), well mannered toddler. He reads to him daily, gives him piggy back rides, crawls on the floor with him growling, and tucks him in at night with a song and prayer. My husband has exceeded my expectations in being a father and his love for our son is unmeasurable. He is a God fearing man who loves us with all of his heart and loves God more! He puts the Lord first in everything and has great goals and dreams for our family. He juggles a family, a full time job, and is writing a book and finishing up another. He is a man with so much on his plate but when I call its "Yes, babe?". He always makes time to spend with us. He will stop whatever he is doing to come and unload the groceries from the car and get Cayden out. He loves what ever I cook and tickles my back when we go to bed. He does everything for us no matter the cost. He is my dream come true, my Prince Charming, and the best father I know! I LOVE BRANDON TREBITOWSKI WITH MY WHOLE HEART!

The guys who fear becoming fathers don't understand that fathering is not something perfect men do, but something that perfects the man. The end product of child raising is not the child but the parent. ~Frank Pittman, Man Enough

My Father:

From the time I can remember my dad has been there for me. When everything I knew was broken and ugly my Dad stood strong beside me. When I had no one else my dad was there! Whether it was in person or over the phone he always comforted me and gave me advise even when I didn't want to listen. He was a dad who wouldn't let me walk out of the house dressed like I was "asking for it" as he would say. He loved me and looked out for me at all times. For most of my teenage life he was far away but that didn't stop us from having a wonderful relationship. We talked on the phone daily and He still guided me from afar. He spent thousands of dollars on me paying for my apartment, entertainment and clothes. Many thought he was spoiling me but through it all he helped me to become the women I am. His love an support are what got me through the hardest times of my life and I could never express the gratitude I have! He was and always will be my hero!

A father carries pictures where his money used to be. ~Author Unknown

It's not only children who grow. Parents do too. As much as we watch to see what our children do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can't tell my children to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it, myself. ~Joyce Maynard

Sing out loud in the car even, or especially, if it embarrasses your children. ~Marilyn Penland

Each day of our lives we make deposits in the memory banks of our children. ~Charles R. Swindoll, The Strong Family

Dan:

Dan is my husbands stepdad. When I first started dating Brandon I thought the rules that were placed on him were crazy. He had a curfew, He had to eat dinner at the table with his family, he couldn't have girls in his bedroom, and couldn't talk on the phone in his room either. I was 18 and had been living on my own for over a year and I couldn't understand what was going on. They prayed before meals and went to church every Sunday. All of this was enforced by Dan. As I got to know this family more and more I fell in love! Dan and Kathie have made a tremendous impact on my life! They have taught me how to be a Godly parent. Although their ways seemed harsh at times they have raised 4 wonderful God loving children. Dan has taught Brandon to open the door for women, to respect his mother, and to treat women with the upmost respect. He has helped to mold Brandon into the man he is today and the structure and rules I hated at one time are now being enforced in our home. He has a servants heart and is willing to help any and everyone. He has answered my questions and guided me through many issues and I feel blessed to have such an amazing example in our lives.

My father used to play with my brother and me in the yard. Mother would come out and say, "You're tearing up the grass." "We're not raising grass," Dad would reply. "We're raising boys." ~Harmon Killebrew

If you have never been disliked by your child you have never been a parent. ~Bette Davis

Mark:

Mark is Brandon's father. I met him the summer of 2004 when he invited us out to spend a week in Arizona for the Trebitowski reunion. Mark is character! He has many stories and jokes that make him so fun to be around. He and his wife Angie live in Arizona and from the age of 10 Brandon has been away from his Dad. When Brandon talks about the move from AZ to NM he says "it was the hardest thing to leave his Dad". I love that although they weren't able to see each other everyday, Mark still made sure to be a part of his children's lives. Mark took Brandon dove hunting, fishing, and they rode bikes together. He made such an impact in Brandon's life. He continues to brag about Brandon's achievements and always is so supportive of our family. Mark absolutely loves the grandkids. When we go out to AZ Cayden wont leave Mark's side. They wash the car together and go to the park sometimes twice a day. Cayden has his blue eyes and the same love for being outdoors. Him and Angie always welcome us to stay at their house and are so loving to us! They have welcomed me into the family as if I was their own and I love to go and visit them! I am so happy to have Mark and Angie in our lives.

Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone

Most of us become parents long before we have stopped being children. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

If you want your children to improve, let them overhear the nice things you say about them to others. ~Haim Ginott